OGL trial was alright. somehow, i still do not feel a sense of belonging. or maybe, im not a cut for that. im not being pessimistic here or whatsoever, im just not fully appeased by the choice i've made. i may be wrong, or i may be correct. or perhaps, it's somehow not what i wanted after all.

OP is around the corner. had the first trial yesterday. i would say i messed that up. reason being that i was not prepared at all, not at all. and i just did it on the spot. i feel so aimless. chinese AO is around the corner too. i did nothing. i wished i have. but there isnt a spur on me to motivate me.

i wouldn't deny that i aint living happily. i'm just a ship without my sail. i wouldn't know what's the answer hidden in there. maybe, thats the struggle that im going through now.

raaah! what an entry. slept 14hours today! i feel so energetic! gonna hang out later. its fashion show! and its my dearest senior who designed those jeans! SOOOO EXCITED! :DDD gonna chill out at raffles too. yippeeee! hula hula hulaaaa!